Tuesday

I suppose it does get easier as time passes. I wasn't nearly as upset or lonely when I woke up today. I got through 30 Day Shred, showered and am currently contemplating a walk. I can do this, and I will do this. I did come to a realization though. The physical pain I'm experiencing as a result of working out is helping me deal with my emotional pain. The exercise is giving me an outlet for all the emotions I'm feeling.

I am really looking forward to when Sean comes home for a weekend. It will be hard to let him go back on the Sunday though.

8/13/12 Reflections

1. I haven't ever really lived -alone-. I've always had someone else there, whether it be a parent, roommate, or jerk boyfriend.
2. I miss my husband so much it hurts.
3. I am trying to be strong, however I feel like I'm failing.
4. Silence is bad right now.

I survived the first night of Sean being gone. Somehow I managed to sleep, got up the next morning and did my best to keep busy. I didn't eat nearly enough, but as promised to him, I tried to eat. I feel like a piece of me is missing, and it is a very unnerving feeling. I keep trying to focus on the positives, and I have managed to keep the crying to a minimum. 

It is times like these that you realize just how strong your feelings are for someone. 

And once again, it is time to try to sleep. Hopefully we will be able to find a place quickly so our little family can be together again.